Inside Out

Deep inside a grain of sand is a miniature universe not visible to the naked eye.  But it exists, and every sea creature knows it.  If one can become microscopic and enter a grain of sand, she would see a timeline of all the past events she experienced.  How does one become microscopic?  Well, fold yourself in half and then in half again.  Keep folding until you become so small, you can’t be seen by the human eye.

Now, you are an invisible accordion with access to the door on every grain of sand.  Become a kite and soar to your favorite beach. Scan the area below and lay in the softest sand.  Bury yourself deep, so deep that the center of your back provides enough pressure to open the door on one of the sand grains.  Whoosh!  Feel the escaping air. The door opens, and you go through without fear.  Look left, then right, then left again, far left.  You see the end of a tunnel where your life began.  It is the exact time, day, month, and year of when you were born.  Walk towards the dim light of your birth year.  As you walk, your peripheral vision becomes a blur of rainbow.   It’s as if you’re traveling through a prism at the speed of light.

You want to slow down in anticipation of seeing your young mother, someone with whom you had a relationship but not one you remember during this stage of your life.  What was she like?  You know she was beautiful.  And she is.  You see her under the fluorescent lights of Bon Secour hospital in Grosse Pointe, Michigan.  There are bold colors that contrast in the hospital’s room.  The hues are vibrant and not yellowed sepia like other photographs from your mother’s past.  Look at the vase of flowers to the right side of your mother’s bed.  They are lipstick red.  They’re brightness matches the expression on your mother’s exuberant but exhausted face.  This is a beautiful moment. She gave you life, and you are grateful.  The moment fulfills you with love and content satisfaction.  You feel euphoric and know it is time to go.  

You’ll return to another moment in your life, but today you’ve seen what you needed.  You’re back at the tunnel of rainbow light and your walk takes you to the exit in no time.  You grasp the handle on the door. Whoosh!  You unfold and unfold again until you return to your original visible self.  

Your reflection and gratefulness give hope.  Life is filled with mystery and beauty, and you are recharged for another day.  Seize it.

By nancyrsantucci

Newly retired Texas educator who loves reading, exercising, cats, and hanging out with her husband.


  1. What a beautiful post. This reminds me of the mathematical world of fractals, which expand and collapse outward, inward, infinitely and infinitessimally. Our world expands outwards and around from one single memory, one single image, in so many different directions. Thank you for this.

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